I Live By This...

Life... is beautiful.

Let the future generations cleanse it of all evil, violence and oppression, and enjoy it to the full.

Evelyn.

She stood before me, trying to wake me so I could get my day started. She threatened me with ice cubes, so I obliged. When I opened my eye's, that's when I got a good look at her. Her hips, thick from years of her own good cooking, her long hair in waves, and her eyeglasses that corrected the vision of the most beautiful hazel eyes I have ever seen. Eyes that held pureness of heart in them, eyes that were filled with love and laughter, but also filled with a tinge of knowing. Knowing of what heartache and loss was, knowing of struggles and despair. When I looked at her this morning in her sensible black slacks and scoop neck tee, I knew that she had been through everything I was trying to work through and then some. But as her loving, healing hands brushed my calf to shake me from my slumber, I knew that I could overcome it. The smile lines laden on her fair skin confirmed that my days would improve.

2am Ramblings.

I couldn't sleep last night and the words just came...its not a poem, i don't think. It doesn't have any sort of rhythm but it was my thoughts just spilling out on the paper...

Lies you told in the heat of the moment. Plans we made during pillow talk. Were you blinded by the passion, the haze of the lust we held for one another?

I took these words seriously.

Carried them with me throughout my day.

They rocked me to sleep at night.

The notion or idea that I could build a future with someone intrigued me. I pictured our kids...a boy for you, a girl for me.

But then...these visions started to fade before my eyes.

The ignored phones calls, unanswered texts, the broken promises.

Reality struck and the fairytale I was planning was hit. The force of the blow rattled it so hard that it couldn't be recovered. My love went away. The only thing I thought would stay, left.

The epitome of a summer love. It left me broken, tarnished and filled with gut wrenching pain.

Blehh.

I need a man that would fiercely protect me and my heart, care about this relationship as much or more than I do, carry  my heart in his hands like it was his own, take me out without my urging, meet my parents and spend holidays as a couple, build a future with me, text/call me without me having to do it first, tells me he loves me randomly, buy me flowers, have long talks about the future of US, love me the way I deserve to be loved, stimulate my mind and body, look at me like I was the most important and beautiful person to him at that very moment, allow me into his heart and to love him, allow me to give all of myself while giving me the same in return.

No lies. Just love.<3