Baby, I can feel myself giving up...

You have to know when to hold 'em, fold 'em, and when to walk [run] away....

I'm living this. Sometimes we hold onto things and/or people because we know in our minds how amazing things could be if it manifested. The easy laughs, intense passion, the understanding, the body language... it all points to how amazing this could be.. how easy this relationship would be... how everyday would be even sweeter than the day before. You know that this is right. You feel it.

But how long do you hold on? When this other person is telling you they're confused and all of the signs are pointing to the opposite, how long do you hold onto your fairytale? You'd said you'd be patient and wait and be there for them and be their friend while they sort things out, but how much are you willing to take? Blatant disrespect and disregard for your feelings. The secrets and the hoops you jump through to keep the peace. The tears you mask and the nonchalant attitude you display because you KNOW. You're simply waiting for them to see what's in front of them. Realize that, its been you all along. The stress that they're going through is unnecessary, and could be deaded with a simple reality check.

What do you do when you feel yourself giving up? The fairytale is fading because you're not dumb and can clearly see what this is. It should never be this difficult. You see the love on their face, and grow angry when you realize that, that love isn't for you. They don't want you but don't want you to hurt again so they hold on, but loosely. Just enough to keep you "satisfied".

What's your breaking point?

"....after you put my heart in the bottom of your shoe, you walked back to where you hurt. & I didn't have nothing. So I went to where someone had something for me. But, he wasn't you." -Ntozake Shange